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Hi am jcob and welcome to my site!
a platform for all my work, my life, and what I love. It is a collection of finds, cool links, music, and my hobbies—a garden in space run by frogs.
I’ve created this personal space to showcase my performances; I want to show the world through my eyes, built space and invite everyone to borrow them and see what I see. To me, all art is political. All art is an emotion made physical.
in addition you'll find sites, all unique in their own way and I’d like to share them with you. I’m inspired by the early days of the Internet of Geocities, which brought me to the creation of scantuary.
I am in my mid-20s, working on making a name for myself.
I have so many ideas that I’ve jotted down over the years; it’s about time I give them a chance to become. It’s hard to explain, but I’m not the kind of artist you see at mixers. I don’t know what "type" I am yet, but my calling has always been performance art: the unique and the untouched, complemented by the vessel or the viewers who give it life.
I’m not perfect. Over time, I became a shut-in, and that caged me. I really thought I couldn’t live in the "now," but that changes this year. I am open to learning and artistic collaborations.
My Journey Back To Art
I am not a conventional artist; I don’t fit the criteria of my peers today. I’m not "pretty," I don’t come from money, and I struggle daily with my emotions. I don’t always "talk right," and the point is, I don’t feel like I fit into my local area—or at least, that’s how it feels to me.
The truth is, my dream has always been to be an artist. To be honest, I had given up on that. I’m not sure if this makes sense, but I felt like I was dreaming while running—trying to accomplish something I didn't actually want. Maybe it was a dream, or maybe just the collective rat race; either way, I don't ever want that again. For the last eight years, I’ve tried to fill that space with merit-based work. I thought, maybe if I become a welder, maybe if I buy this car, maybe if I become a manager, or maybe if I own this or that... but as I accomplished those things, I couldn’t help it—I just felt emptier.
I kept thinking, "Back to square one." But no! No, no, no! Who says I can’t be a performance artist if I’ve never tried? Who says I can’t build a retro website just to see how it looks?
It worked. I was happy. From the project notes to the cultivation of the site, seeing it become physically real made me feel real.
The more I work, the more I realize my art could truly be something. Even if only one person sees it or attends a show, it makes it all worthwhile. I have so much to say and so much to show. More than ever, I want to show up for the daily drive I have now.
It’s comforting. I stay up at night, thinking about the completion and the next set of projects. Compared to the distress of the ebb I used to feel.
Now I feel a the flow.
MORE ON SCANTUARY
Welcome to the Scantuary
I tried to hyperlink every GIF to a site or its corresponding theme—for example, a frog to a frog site or flowers to a flower site. This comes from my GIF obsession. I’m in love with GIFs; I have a horde of them. I've been collecting them across the Wayback Machine, Giphy, and even old Yahoo pages. It’s my way of sharing them with you and giving them a little home in the modern world.
The name is a play on the word "sanctuary"—just scramble the letters and you get Scantuary. Why? Because this is my studio where you’ll scan with your eyes. It is a holy place of safety and love for who I am.